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    Sunday, November 30th, 2008
    1:59 pm
    GOING TO OREGON.
    Tuesday, June 10th, 2008
    7:46 pm
    history's so strong-ong
    as of tomorrow, i am done with history until september.
    just wanted to share.

    and im going to prague in 20 days. thank god.

    Current Mood: accomplished
    Wednesday, January 30th, 2008
    6:43 pm
    if you had seen it/i bet that you would have done the same
    :(
    I'm such a sore loser.
    But really, everyone in my English class is confused.
    And this is an assignment I have no excuse about.
    I've never worked harder on something that has given me such a shitty result in my life - or at least not that I remember.
    Ah.

    Current Mood: pissed off
    Monday, January 14th, 2008
    7:52 pm
    back to the ussr
    +no school
    -ear infection
    +just ate chinese food
    -can't really hear
    +went out to pie with maddie
    -haven't been out since and feel like a loser
    +history midyear postphoned
    -i'm so not ready to take the test tomorrow
    +no track today
    -i have no idea what i am doing in the meet tomorrow
    +photo is finished
    -couldn't go to minga because of it
    +speech on saturday
    -did shitty
    +my sophmore speech is under 6 minutes
    -i am so freaking scared
    +not worried about saying speech
    -now all i need is for everyone in my class to be worried... just kidding
    +mimi's minga donation
    -all the minga stuff that i'm upset about
    +saw sweeney todd special feature thing
    -hate running on treadmills - especially while learning about lenin's ussr

    Current Mood: blah
    Tuesday, January 8th, 2008
    9:42 pm
    seeing my name in black and white
    So upset. Stupid Minga hierchy. Stupid Mel on the bottom. Stupid drama
    But I got my first track-recruiting-letter from a college that is actually not in the middle of nowhere. As a sophmore...
    And on top of everything...Clinton won New Hampshire and Edwards only got 17%. Grrr. Hey, at least Romney didn't win.

    Current Mood: aggravated
    Wednesday, January 2nd, 2008
    7:02 pm
    no day but today
    copied off of leora's friend
    IN 2007 I:

    [ ] stayed single
    [x] got kissed
    [x] kissed someone new
    [x] kissed in the snow
    [ ] kissed in the rain
    [ ] had my heart broken (that's kind of strong)
    [ ] broke someone else's heart
    [ ] had a stalker
    [ ] lost a friend
    [x] had a good relationship with someone
    [ ] questioned my sexual orientation
    [ ] came out of my closet
    [ ] got pregnant
    [ ] had an abortion
    [ ] got married
    [ ] had a divorce
    [ ] kissed someone of the same sex
    [x] met someone that I will never forget.
    [x] did something I regret
    [x] lost faith in love for awhile
    [ ] kissed under mistletoe
    [ ] got my first job
    [ ] got a promotion
    [ ] got a pay raise
    [ ] changed jobs
    [ ] lost my job
    [ ] quit my job
    [ ] dated a co-worker
    [ ] dated my boss
    [ ] dated my boss's son/ daughter
    [ ] got straight A's
    [ ] failed a class
    [x] cut class (photo to go running with MK - does that count?)
    [ ] skipped school
    [x] did something I was proud of
    [x fell in love with a teacher (that's a tad strong)
    [x] was involved in something that I will never forget
    [ ] painted a picture
    [x] wrote a poem
    [x] ran a mile (haha)
    [x] listened to music I couldn't stand (gimme gimme more gimme more...aaah)
    [x] double dipped (probs by accident)
    [ ] skinny dipped
    [x] went to a sleepover
    [x] went to camp
    [ ] threw a surprise party
    [x] laughed till I cried
    [x] flirted shamelessly
    [x] visited a foreign country (i'm counting canada)
    [x] visited a foreign state (california?)
    [ ] cooked a disastrous meal
    [x] lost something important to me
    [x] got a gift I love
    [x] realized something new about myself
    [ ] tried to gain weight
    [ ] dyed my hair
    [x] came close to losing my life (tango mango!)
    [ ] someone close to me died
    [ ] went to a wild party
    [ ] got arrested
    [x] read a great book
    [x] saw a great movie
    [ ] saw a movie so scary that it made me cry
    [x] saw a favorite band live (HARRY AND THE POTTERS!)
    [x] did something that I want to tell someone but can't
    [x] experienced something new
    [x] made new friends
    [x] found out who your real friends are
    [x] lied to your parents
    [x] snuck out (kind of...)
    [ ] got in trouble with police
    [ ] kissed in a pool
    [x] kissed under the stars (technically it WAS under the stars but not like ohletskissbecausewereunderthestars...okay that made more sense in my head)
    [ ] did an illegal drug
    [x] went to a party
    [x] had the time of your life
    [x] danced
    [ ] fell out of love
    [x] had a crush on someone
    [ ] changed your sexual preference
    [x] swam in a pool
    [ ] made a snowman.
    [ ] went snowboarding
    [ ] went sledding
    [ ] slept in past 2pm
    [x] held someones hand
    [x] held someones hand that you care about
    [x] told someone you like them as more than a friend
    [x] gone on vacation
    [ ] gone on vacation with a friend
    [ ] driven a car
    [ ] played strip poker
    [x] danced in the rain
    [ ] seen someone get in a car accident
    [ ] got in a fist fight
    [x] laughed until you couldn't breathe
    [x] had an amazing year
    [x] missed someone
    [ ] got hit by car
    [ ] sent someone to the hospital
    [ ] got a new pet
    [x] enjoyed this year

    Current Mood: exhausted
    Saturday, November 17th, 2007
    11:34 pm
    having fun isnt hard
    go everyone go!

    1. Name:
    2. Birthday:
    3. Place of residence:
    4. What makes you happy:
    5. What are you listening to now/have listened to last:
    6. Do you read my lj:
    7. If you do, what is particularly good/bad about it:
    8. An interesting fact about you:
    9. Are you in love/have a crush at the moment? Who is it?:
    10. Favourite place to be:
    11. Favourite lyric:
    12. Best time of the year:
    13. Weird thing about you:

    Recommend

    1. A film:
    2. A book:
    3. A band, a song and an album:

    Me

    1. One thing you like about me:
    2. Two things you like about yourself:
    3. Put this in your lj so I can tell you what I think of you.

    Current Mood: cheerful
    Tuesday, November 6th, 2007
    8:55 pm
    you begin to wonder could you find a better one?
    You swear you recall nothing at all
    That could make you come back down
    You made up your mind to leave it all behind
    Now you're forced to fight it out

    You fall away from your past
    But it's following you

    You left something undone, it's now your rerun
    It's the one you can't erase
    You should have made it right, so you wouldn't have to fight
    To put a smile back on your face

    You fall away from your past
    But it's following you
    You fall away

    Something I've done that I can't outrun
    Maybe you should wait maybe you should run
    But there's something you've said that can't be undone

    And you fall away from your past
    But It's following you

    You fall away
    It's following you

    Current Mood: confused
    Friday, November 2nd, 2007
    6:41 pm
    here she lies/no one knew her worth
    copying ari...
    130 Things People (probably don't) Want To Know About You

    .: The Basics :.

    Name?: Mel
    Age?: 15
    Gender?: female
    Location?: Newton
    Hair color?: brunette
    Eye color?: hazel
    shoe size?: depends on the shoe
    height?: five feet!
    interests:: hmmm...

    .: Favourites :.

    food: im a big fan of cookies
    drink: starbucks
    music style: anything except for classical and jazz and im not a big rap person
    music artist/band: oh goodness do you want me to get started?
    tv show: i dont watch tv
    movie: superbad
    thing to do: talk, be with people, hang out with people, have fun
    ice cream: oreo cake batter
    colour: Purple
    song: i want to know your plans - say anything
    book: 19 minutes or the pact - jodi piccoult
    computer game: the sims 2 - ah good memories
    board game:disney scene it
    dessert: hot chocolate
    quote: quote book from park!
    animal: does robby count?
    holiday: i like summer vacation
    number: 48
    name: hmm...

    .: Friendship :.:
    who's your best friend?: i dont have best friends
    other close buddies...?: a bunch of people - or at least i feel that way toward a bunch of people
    last friend you hung out with: maddie, lia, and emma yesterday
    last friend you hugged: pinkie perhaps? maddie? i dont remember!
    last friend you saw a movie with: abby kaps emma lia maddie and jessika - sydney white!
    last friend's house you went to: i stepped inside sarah bermans house this morning!
    any friends you cant stand?: everyone has their moments
    any friends you've regretted becoming friends with?: a few
    if so, who?: why would i say that?
    do you have a lot of friends of the opposite sex?: i have a few
    most annoying friend?: depends on the moment
    most preppy friend?: some of my camp friends
    darkest friend?: ari or caroline perhaps?
    hyper-est friend?: sidrah or abby needle
    nicest friend?: pinkie or becca raftery
    funniest friend?: mara or jonathan. but i have lots of funny friends, it depends on what mood im in on that day
    meanest friend?: well helen prides herself on being mean but deep down inside i dont know
    most outgoing friend?: taryn or hannah furgangster
    shyest friend?: sarah berman or julia fernandez, but all of them come out of their shell
    hottest friend?: honestly they're all drop-dead gorgeous one way or another
    friend with the best personality?: im overwhelmed, probably like tamar or taryn but i really dont know
    friend with the best music taste?: mara or abby kaps
    friend who sings the best?: probably michael richarde even though im kind of tone deaf
    friend who laughs the most?: maddie and i
    friend you enjoy being around the most?: ALL OF THEM!
    friend who your parents love?: most people in minga, zervas people...
    friend who your parents hate?: jonathan or louisa
    friend your parents don't know about?: most of them
    .: Romance :.

    got a crush?: dont i always
    if so, what gender?: boy
    name?: hehehe
    how far have you gone?: i dont think his current love interest wants to know
    with who?: he might be ashamed
    the last person you kissed:: not on the cheek - arthur (whoa thats a long time ago)
    the last person you hugged:: a friend (i dont remember)
    the last person you wanted to kiss:: hehehe
    how far you do want to go (at this point in life)?: depends on with who
    hottest celebrity?: oh goodness
    if you could date any famous person, who would it be?: jake gyllenhal or tyson ritter if they were just a little bit older than me
    dream date:: being pushed on the swings at a playground, but there are more depending on who id be with
    dream honeymoon:: somewhere nice
    age you want to get married (if not already): i guess ill follow ari and say before 30 if at all
    number of kids you want to have (if not already): depends on who with, probably 1,2,or 3
    straight?: yep
    gay?: nope but i love gay people!
    bi?: i dont think so
    would you rather your boyfriend/girlfriend be gay or bi?: if they were gay why would they be going out with me? bi i suppose

    .: This or That :.

    Kerry or Bush: kerry (ari? bush? whattheheck?)
    rap or rock: Rock
    pop or country: Pop
    movie or tv show: movie
    girl or guy: guy
    fire or water: water
    death or life: life?
    cheerleader or punk: punk
    prep or jock: jock most of the time
    kroger or publix: none in newton but the krogers in atlanta is nicer than the publix
    walmart or target: target unless if im at camp schodack, then walmart
    avril or jay-z: HE WAS A SK8ER BOI SHE SAID SEE YOU LATER BOI
    pink or black: black
    cheez it or cheese nip: cheez its!
    cat or dog: dog
    tape or glue: tape
    msn or aim: aim
    mall or movies: mall
    writing or typing: typing
    phone or computer: Phone
    baseball or football: baseball but track beats them all
    p.e. or health: usually health
    high school or middle school: high school.
    dunkin donuts or starbucks: STARBUCKS!
    amc or united artists: amc
    walgreens or CVS: the new cvs is awesome
    brownies or cookies: usually cookies
    reading or writing: writing
    surveys or polls: surveys
    livejournal or xanga: livejournal
    Yellowcard or Ashlee Simpson: yellowcard
    AFI or Jojo: AFI
    Green Day or Beastie Boys: green day
    kill or be killed: be killed
    eat or be eaten: eat
    hate or be hated: hate is a strong word
    ocean or pool: ocean
    singing or dancing: dancing though badly except singing is more attractive
    heart or peace sign: heart
    halloween or christmas: halloween - go jews
    question or answer: answer
    fear factor or the o.c.: i used to like the oc
    the simpsons or who's line is it anyway?: dont watch either but i heard the simpsons is funny
    Disney or The N: disney
    pancakes or waffles: waffles
    strawberrys or blueberrys: blueberries
    yogurt or frozen yogurt: frozen yogurt
    kiss or hug: i like kisses but hugs make me happy also.
    guitar or drums: guitar!

    Current Mood: crazy
    Sunday, September 16th, 2007
    1:13 pm
    sing me a song
    hey i think you're cute
    would you like to be my new best friend?
    we can talk for hours or just lay in bed
    you're just the kind of kid i could grow old with
    so won't you walk with me to the park up the road?
    i told you that i'd be right back
    you said that i'll be the judge of that
    'cause see boys they have a tendency of running from me
    as fast as they can i don't know why
    and i just laughed and asked if you'd like a coke or some sort of assorted beverage from the diner up the road
    if so, you should walk with me
    feel free to hold my hand
    feel free to kiss me on the cheek even though i'd prefer the lips

    hey i think you're groovy
    would you wanna see a movie with me?
    we can sit in uncomfortable seats and eventually
    i'll get the nerve to put my arm around you
    can i put my arms around you?
    'cause i'd sure like to
    it'll be like an episode of boy meets world
    except without the commercials
    and i'm just fine with that
    how about you?

    i like the way you talk
    i like your died black hair
    i love your halfass accent you stole from the foreign movies
    i like your pretty eyes
    and how you're afraid of the dark
    well i am too
    so would you like to take a walk with me
    through a well lit park just up the block?

    i'll be the bright side of your bad day
    i'll be the bright side of your bad nights
    i'll be the bright side of your bad day
    if you'll be mine

    if you'll be mine

    Current Mood: cheerful
    Monday, August 27th, 2007
    10:11 pm
    what i couldnt do was SING
    Next to each show put one of the following….

    * (X) If you have heard of the show
    * (CD) If you own/listen to the CD
    * (SEEN) If you have seen the show (Professional, Community Theater, etc) If you’ve seen it more than once write the number after SEEN
    * (“Your Part”) If you have been in it (put your particular part)

    Leave it BLANK if none of the options apply…

    Here we go. Let’s see how much you really love Musical Theater/Broadway.

    Be HONEST. Not very many people have ever heard of the show “Flora the Red Menace.” Don’t get down to the results and see you’re only 5 away from being a “Musical Theater Master” and change a few of your answers! Just own up, and if you want, make yourself more knowledgeable. Go listen to the ones you haven’t heard of...

    Avenue Q: [x CD]
    Chicago: [x CD]
    Chitty Chitty Bang Bang: [x]
    Fiddler on the Roof: [x CD seen]
    Lestat:
    Beauty and the Beast: [x CD]
    Dirty Rotten Scoundrels: [x]
    Hairspray: [x CD seen]
    Mamma Mia: [x seen]
    Sweeney Todd: [x]
    The Color Purple: [x]
    The Light in the Piazza: []
    The Pajama Game: [x]
    The Producers: [x CD]
    Movin’ Out: [x]
    Rent: [x cd seen]
    Spamalot: [x CD seen]
    Sweet Charity: [x seen]
    The 25th Annual Putnam County Spelling Bee: [x seen]
    The Lion King: [x CD]
    The Phantom of the Opera: [x CD]
    The Threepenny Opera : [ ]
    The Women in White: [ ]
    Little Shop of Horrors: [x]
    Wicked: [x cd seen]
    Annie: [x seen]
    Joseph and the Amazing Tecnicolor Dream Coat: [x seen chorus]
    Sunday in the Park With George:[]
    Into the Woods: [x]
    Jersey Boys: [x]
    In My Life:
    Ring of Fire:
    42nd Street: [x]
    Brigadoon:
    Cabaret: [x]
    Carousel: [x]
    Cats: [x]
    Chess: []
    A Chorus Line: [x whatever the name is of the girl who cant sing]
    Evita: [x]
    The Full Monty: []
    Grease: [x CD]
    Guys and Dolls: [x seen]
    Jekyll and Hyde: [x]
    Jesus Christ Superstar: [x]
    Loot
    Oklahoma: [x seen]
    My Fair Lady: [x]
    Nunsense: [ x]
    Rocky Horror Picture Show: [x]
    Seussical: [x]
    South Pacific: [x]
    Stomp: [x]
    Fosse:
    Blast:
    Sweet Smell of Success:
    How To Succeed in Business Without Really Trying: []
    Working: []
    The Who’s Tommy: ]
    Victor/Victoria: []
    West Side Story: [x ensamble]
    La Boheme: [x]
    The Wizard of Oz: [x wicked witch of the west]
    The Wiz: [x]
    Wonderful Town: [x]
    You’re a Good Man Charlie Brown: [x CD]
    Les Miserables: [x]
    Oliver!: [x seen]
    Pippin: [x]
    Pirates of Penzance: [x]
    Tick Tick Boom: []
    The Boy From Oz: []
    Gypsy: []
    Thoroughly Modern Millie: [x]
    Altar Boyz: []
    Annie Get Your Gun: [x seen]
    Anything Goes: [x]
    Aspects of Love: []
    Assassins: []
    Barnum: []
    Big: []
    Bombay Dreams: []
    Bye Bye Birdie: [x]
    Hair: [x]
    1776: []
    Footloose: [x]
    Once Upon a Mattress: [x]
    Allegro:
    Camelot: [x]
    Children of Eden: [x]
    Cinderella: [x]
    Damn Yankees: [x Lynville]
    Dreamgirls: [x cd]
    Fame: []
    The Fantasticks: []
    Flora the Red Menace:
    Flower Drum Song: []
    On the Town: []
    Follies: []
    On a Clear Day You Can See Forever: []
    Nine: []
    The Music Man: [x]
    The Most Happy Fella:
    Miss Saigon: [x]
    Man of La Mancha: []
    Mame: []
    Kiss Me Kate: [x]
    The King and I: [x seen]
    Irene:
    I Love You, You’re Perfect, Now Change: [[
    A Funny Thing Happened on the Way to the Forum: []
    Parade: [x ]]
    Peter Pan: [x seen]
    Ragtime: [x]
    Riverdance: [x]
    Saturday Night Fever: []
    Smokey Joe’s Cafe: []
    Showboat: []
    The Sound of Music: [x seen Gretl]
    The Secret Garden: [x]
    Ruthless!: [x]
    Sunset Blvd: []
    Swing:
    Taboo: []
    Titanic: [x]
    Triumph of Love:
    The Wild Party: []
    The Scarlet Pimpernel: []
    Company: []
    Contact:
    No, No Nanette:
    Hedwig and the Angry Inch:
    High Society:
    Kiss of the Spiderwoman
    A Little Night Music: []
    Urinetown: [x seen]
    All Shook Up: {x}
    The Baker’s Wife:
    The Phantom Tollbooth: [x seen]
    Legally Blonde: [x]
    Spring Awakening [x CD]

    Current Mood: blah
    Tuesday, June 26th, 2007
    10:49 pm
    and we're all in the mood for a melody/youve got me feeling all right
    tomorrow i will be sitting on a coach bus sandwhiched next to pappo or robby (my little brother) on the way to krouner rd in nassau new york for what is supposedly going to be the best 7 1/2 weeks of my life - CIT summer. ive been looking forward to this for almost six years.

    yet, ive changed a lot since i first started going to camp in 2002 - either that, or everyone else at camp has changed. my awkward stage has come and passed, or lessened depending on how you look at it. girls and boys have hit puberty and matured, for better or worst. teenagers are faced with deciding whether they would prefer to make the most of their situation by accepting craziness, or to pretend to be something they're not in order to attract members of the desired sex.

    last friday, this guy (hehe ill leave you to ponder that) and i went on a "half-date" - his words, not mine, to name this "trial" we were experiencing and hopefully passed. we had a ton of fun without either one of us -i believe- pretending to be something we're not. i learned loads about my friend, and i think it was vice versa. i mean, that relationship will probably terminate romantically due to my being gone until aug. 16 and him traveling for 3 weeks. but still, im holding onto hope that this will be better than my last relationship, and my facebook status is currently "complicated." if you write me with questions about ^, ill respond :)

    my point is that, if everyone at my camp followed that philosophy, my camp experience would be so much more pleasant, i would have cried much less and felt so much less excluded. i wouldnt be shunned from being in the "excellent eleven" or being uninvited to sumber parties or b'nai mitzvot i wouldnt be able to attend anyways. i wouldnt have felt left out for being the only awkward-going-into-7th-grader-without-a-bra, the-one-who-didnt-know-what-a-hickey-was, or girl-who-didnt-wear-a-ton-of-makeup.

    dont get me wrong, i love my camp. and i am so freaking excited, my laptop is actually shaking. the original cast of rent, blaring from my ipod, just sang "no day but today" before the song changed. and you know what? im going to take that to heart.

    so people, please write me. i will write you back. my bags are currently in the lodge or the icehouse, hopefully alongside my friends and not the annoyances or mean people. my tote bag from village day and an old american eagle shopping bag are stuffed with everything except for my ipod and a cookie monster stuffed animal. my parents just gave robby and lizzie the lecture from the camp handbook, and i just discovered a shocking amount of awkward photos of myself to contribute to the wall of shame.

    hopefully, this will be a great summer for everyone. see you guys on the 16th!

    Current Mood: excited
    Tuesday, June 12th, 2007
    8:25 pm
    why should i worry?
    someone with an inside source just told me that i should me an asistant stage manager. is that basically saying that i wasnt good enough? that my short little schpeal didn't
    wow the directors, or even make them ponder giving me another chance to prove myself? am i really that horrendous at acting, or just auditions?
    after all, being a little kid is the only thing i can act out. if i cant do that, then
    who knows who i can act out?

    maybe im just worried about finals, and this is just the cherry on top.

    Current Mood: anxious
    Wednesday, May 30th, 2007
    6:04 pm
    ive gone identity mad!
    do i attract you?
    do i repulse you wiht my queasy smile?
    am i too dirty?
    am i too flirty?

    do i like what you like?
    i could be wholesome
    i could be loathsome
    i guess im a little bit shy
    why dont you like me?
    why dont you like me without making me try?...

    i could be brown
    i could be blue
    i could be violet sky
    i could be hurtful
    i could be purple
    i could be anything you like
    gotta be green
    gotta be mean
    gotta be everything more
    why dont you like me?
    why dont you like me
    why dont you walk out the door!

    how can i help it?
    how can i help it?
    how can i help what you think?
    hello my baby
    hello my baby
    putting my life on the brinke

    why dont you like me?
    why dont you like me?
    why dont you like yourself?
    should i bend over?
    should i look older just to be put on the shelf?...

    say what you want to satisfy yourself
    but you only want what everybody else says you should want...

    i could be brown
    i could be blue
    i could be violent sky
    i could be hurtful
    i could be purple
    i could be anything you like
    gotta be green
    gotta be mean
    gotta be everything more
    why dont you like me?
    why dont you like me?

    why dont you walk out that door?

    Current Mood: restless
    Sunday, May 13th, 2007
    5:11 pm
    few times have ever seemed so good so good so good so good
    once again, my parents arent letting me go to minga, and are once again pulling their "ACADEMICS AT THE TOP TRACK SECOND EVERYTHING ELSE OFF THE AGENDA" junk on me. urgh. i love my parents, i really do, but i wish that they would relax a little bit whenever i get a b or whatnot. its really frustrating. people wonder why i cry whenever i dont do as well, and theyre why. really

    anyways..the freshman cruise was really fun. no, im not just saying that, it actually was. i mean, lots of random people hooking up. one newfound single flirting like theres no tomorrow and making everyone feel uncomfortable while thinking he was just being a friend. my english teacher did watch me jokingly pople dance with hannah - although he may not have thought of it as such a funny joke. alex pearce set me up for a prank. and mr todd now thinks im an alien.

    but pretty much every girl looked gloriously pretty. i gave more hugs than i can possibly count. eric and jacob lent me their jackets when i was cold. the brownies were alright. the dj played sweet caroline, dont stop believing, and that mika song; therefore causing me to loose my voice by screaming so hard. i got "leied" (haha pun) 3 times. i grinded with hannah, danced like nobody was watching, and acting like my always crazy, hyperactive self. mara made me look mildly decent and gave me a piece of gum. ben and i are speaking and having real conversations. one girl revealed something about herself, although i may have been the only one listening. sarah berman slow danced with someone. sherri told me i looked like someone in a febreeze commercial. heck, madeline and i even ran laps around the boat in celebration of coming in 3rd at the andover meet earlier that day.

    if it werent for the fact that i missed the sorting, yesterday would have been truly amazing

    Current Mood: bouncy
    Tuesday, May 1st, 2007
    4:41 pm
    had i known how to save a life
    so there was this counselor at my camp named josh davis
    he was a camper before he was a counselor, and he was goddamn amazing
    he was a color war captain, and he was one of the best ropes counselors ever. he was so encouraging and smiling and happy and just generally a nice guy.
    but he died in a car accident yesterday, and its so depressing i cant get over it.
    he was only 17 and totally didnt deserve it
    next to josh being dead, the fact that i probably wont get the banana pancakes he promised me oh so long ago for my birthday or thursday, that im going to play kickball with his homeroom and therefore have to contact him on tuesday, or that im going to be five feet for the rest of my life dont really matter.

    so please rest in peace josh davis. you deserve it, and i will think of you whenever i climb.

    Current Mood: sad
    Saturday, April 21st, 2007
    5:28 pm
    so happy together
    i really am happier.

    taryns home, how sad can i be?

    Current Mood: bouncy
    Wednesday, April 11th, 2007
    10:06 pm
    to all of you
    i want to know your plans

    and how involved in them i am
    when i go to sleep for good
    will i be forgiven?
    and if you want roses
    you can go buy a bouquet
    if that just wont cut it
    well what can i say?
    youre what keeps me believing
    the worlds not gone dead
    strength in my bones
    put the words in my head
    when they pour out to paper
    its all for you
    cause thats what you do
    thats what you do
    i want to know your fear
    from your feet to the back of your ear
    when they raise the landing gear
    will your heart stay here
    if you could forgive me
    for being so brash
    well you you can hit me or whip me
    oh ill savour each lash
    youre what keeps me believing
    the worlds not gone dead
    strength in my bones
    put the words in my head
    when they pour out to paper its all
    for you
    cause thats what you do
    no more fighting
    this is only a waste of our time
    oh cause soon well be leaving
    will this strength still be mine?
    ill look out for you
    till i die
    till i rot
    oh ill remember you
    till i die
    till i rot
    youre what keeps me believing
    the worlds not gone dead
    strength in my bones
    put the words in my head
    when they pour out to paper
    its all for you
    youre what keeps me believing
    the worlds not gone dead
    strength in my bones
    put the words in my head
    when they pour out to paper
    its all for you

    cause thats what you do

    Current Mood: blah
    Monday, April 2nd, 2007
    10:00 pm
    the beat of my head
    I've kissed...
    [x] on the cheek.
    [x] on the lips.
    [x] on the hands.
    [ x] in my room.
    [x] in their room.
    [x] of the opposite sex.
    [x ] of the same sex. (on the cheek)
    [x] a little younger than me.
    [x] a little older than me.
    [x] with brown hair.
    [x] with curly hair.
    [ ] with blonde hair and blue eyes. (eew)
    [x] with straight hair.
    [] shorter than you. (this is MEL were talking about)
    [ ] with a lip ring.
    [ ] with a tounge ring
    [ ] who was drunk. (I'm a gentleman =P)
    [ ] while you were drunk
    [ x] taller than me
    [ ] who was high.
    [ ] when you were high
    [x] in the morning.
    [ ] right after waking up.
    [ ] just before bed.
    [x] late at night.
    [ x] who I really didn't want to kiss.
    [ ] who was going out with someone else
    [x] on a bed.
    [ ] two people at the same time
    [ x] right after you've kissed somebody else (truth or dare)
    [ ] in a graveyard.
    [x] school.
    [x] at a show.
    [ ] at the beach.
    [ ] in a pool.
    [x] who was/is a good friend.
    [x] in the rain/snow
    [ ] with an std
    [ ] in a car/taxi/bus.
    [ ] on a plane.
    [ ] in the movies.
    [ ] in a bathroom.
    [x] in the dark
    [ ] on a roof top (in my dreams)
    [ ] under water
    [ ] while you/they were driving
    [ ] who was a complete stranger (Kind of...Like a friend of a couple of hours/one day)
    [ ] at the old folks home
    [ ] against a wall.
    [x] at the park
    [ ] in a shower
    [x] while people were watching
    [ ] who had false teeth
    [ ] in an elevator
    [ ] in your parents room
    [ ] who had bad breath
    [ ] by accident


    :x: name: Mel
    :x: shoe size: 6-7 1/2
    :x: siblings: little brother and sister
    :x: jr.high: Park
    :x: elementary: right here at zervas
    :x: hometown: Newton Jewton
    :x: favorite place: NYC or 12123
    :x: favorite soda: coke
    :x: favorite food: starbucks
    :x: favorite book: harry potter, prep, the curious incident of the dog in the nighttime, or the pact
    :x: favorite pen: one that works (thats actually rare)
    :x: favorite car: one that drives
    :x: favorite animal: i really like my teddy bear
    :x: water brand: vitamin water is love
    :x: favorite burger place: VEGETARIAN
    :x: favorite hobby: being the amazing person that i am :D
    :x: favorite friends: i love all of my friends
    :x: favorite new friends: nfty people are the newest ones
    :x: bar or club: never been to either!
    :x: favorite vitamins: i once choked on a gummy vitamin
    :x: favorite show: i dont watch enough tv
    :x: favorite movie: rent, the notebook, saw, saw 2, eurotrip ...
    :x: favorite news: im clueless
    :x: gold or silver: silver
    :x: cell phone co.: verizon
    :x: favorite shirt: me gustan mis camisetas
    :x: favorite sport: cool people do track
    :x: favorite alcohol: i dont drink thank yoou very much
    :x: favorite computer: my macbook is my friend
    :x: favorite fruit: bananas
    :x: favorite song: "I want to know your plans" by say anything. listen to it now
    :x: ketchup or salsa: ketchup
    :x: favorite milkshake: hannahs!
    :x: favorite backpack: my american eagle one
    :x: wallet: its blue?
    :x: favorite color: Purple
    :x: favorite weather: sunny, 70 degrees
    :x: favorite state[s]: new york

    Do You?
    :x: have a crush on someone: yes indeed
    :x: wish you could live somewhere else: anywhere but here - actually not really
    :x: think about suicide: not since last year (please dont ask)
    :x: believe in online dating: havent experienced
    :x: think others find you attractive: No. i dont understand why anyone would possibly find me attractive. but one guys crazy enough to.
    :x: want more piercings: yes
    :x: like cleaning: naw
    :x: like roller coasters: YES!
    :x: write in cursive or print: print

    Lasts
    :x: last talked to: sammie gross
    :x: last thought of: the piece of gum im chewing
    :x: last showered: right before passingover
    :x: last cut your nails: oh god...
    :x: last did laundry: my parents do
    :x: last hugged a tree:when i took pictures of taryn
    :x: last watched anime: never
    :x: last prayed:just got back from passover

    For or Against?
    :x: long distant relationships: good luck with that
    :x: killing people: NO!
    :x: teenage smoking: i wouldnt
    :x: driving drunk: nope
    :x: soap operas: depends

    Have you?
    :x: ever cried over a guy: yes - just last night actually
    :x: ever been in a fist fight: mel? fighting?
    :x: ever had a friend die: camp
    :x: ever used a gun: never
    :x: ever french kiss: just today actually
    :x: ever finished a puzzle: yes - thats what i did for the first few years of my life
    :x: ever got surgery: my tooth got pulled out when i was little
    :x: ever got beat up: emotionally by jonathan
    :x: ever hated someone: hate is a strong word
    :x: ever made a huge mistake: oh goodness
    :x: ever tried any drugs: sudafed!
    :x: ever jogged a mile: no i just run them :)
    :x: ever played with someones feelings: maybe

    What?
    :x: shoes do you wear: converse and vans
    :x: do you sleep in: pajamas?
    :x: did you eat for lunch: french fries, quakes, fruit snacks, or nothing
    :x: is love?: i cant wait to find out
    :x: color is your apartment: clear
    :x: would make your day right now: if he actually called me because he had nothing better to do. yes im hopeless.

    Number?
    :x: of times I have had my heart broken? - 1.
    :x: of hearts I have broken?: i dont think any
    :x: of girls I have kissed?: on the cheeck? a lot
    :x: of boys I have kissed?: 4. i think.
    :x: of guys/girls you've rejected?: oh gawd...
    :x: of drugs you taken: advil!
    :x: of accidents you been in: none
    :x: of people you lead on?: no one
    :x: of people you broke up with?: I DUMPED YOU JONATHAN MISEN CHAU


    Favorite?
    :x: five letter word - witty.
    :x: comedian: too many
    :x: candy: gum
    :x: cartoon: arthur
    :x: cereal: honey nut cheerios
    :x: chewing gum: orbit
    :x: day of week: friday or saturday or sunday
    :x: least favorite day: mondays
    :x: jello flavor: cherry?
    :x: summer/winter: Summer
    :x: trampolines or swimming pools: trampolines make me happy

    Person who last?
    :x: slept in your bed: me!
    :x: saw you cry: my spanish class.
    :x: made you cry: bensler. wasnt his fault though
    :x: you went to the movies with: my sister
    :x: yelled at you: my parents
    :x: sent you an email: ms honeyman

    Have you ever?
    :x: said "i love you" and meant it?:i think ive meant it
    :x: been in love?: i truly dont know
    :x: gone out in public in your pajamas?: yes!
    :x: kept a secret from everyone?: sure
    :x: cried during a movie?: every movie ive ever seen
    :x: ever at anytime owned new kids on the block?: naw
    :x: planned your week based on the TV Guide?: im not quite that cool
    :x: been on stage?: thank god
    :x: been to New York?:Yes
    :x: been to California?:in my dreams
    :x: been to Florida?:Yesire
    :x: Hawaii?:in my dreams
    :x: China?: id like to
    :x: Canada?: oh yes
    :x: Europe?: in my perfect life
    :x: apples or bananas?: bananas
    :x: blue or red?: Blue
    :x: walmart or target?: target
    :x: spring or fall?: spring
    :x: what are you gonna do after you finish this?: go to bed
    :x: what was the last meal you ate?: passover seder. oy vey
    :x: last noise you heard?: lizzie showering
    :x: last smell you sniffed: cigarette smoke
    :x: last time you went out of state/province?: track nationals

    Friendship/love
    :x: do you believe in love at first sight?: attraction yes love no
    :x: do you want children one day & if so, how many?: yes. i dont know, it depends.
    :x: most important thing to you in a friendship is?: ability to listen to me, be honest, and not afraid to be themselves

    Random stuff?
    :x: do you speak any other languages?: nopes
    :x: name some of your favorite things in your bedroom?: me, dirty towel, penny, gum wraper
    :x: steak or lobster?: lobster
    :x: ever have a dream you were falling?: free free falling...
    :x: piercings and where?: ears
    :x: worst feeling in the world?: feeling like youre pointless and everyone hates you. and feeling fat.
    :x: whom you love: too many people to name
    :x: nickname(s): mel, marbs, melf...
    :x: initials: MNF
    :x: how old do you look?: like 6
    :x: how old do you act?: like 4
    :x: braces: got them off last year
    :x: do you have any pets?: latte
    :x: you get embarrassed?: yes
    :x: what upsets you? feeling hated/mean people

    Current Mood: chipper
    Sunday, April 1st, 2007
    1:24 pm
    baruch attah adonai
    wow. this weekend was a lot of fun.
    i like nfty. a lot. an awfull lot.

    Current Mood: enthralled
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